Rubie tells it all

if i just breathe;

Jul 9, 2009
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I do micro-blogging at Twitter most of the time because that's all time can spare me to do lately. So if you have one, we can follow. :) I've been enjoying the twitter world, it's definitely awesome to have Hollywood celebrities hooked into it because they feel so close yet so far.

I know I'd be really lame because I have nothing to talk about but school. This term, I am taking comparative vertebrate anatomy, phycology (algae), general microbiology and integrated calculus 2. Oh yes, it's one crazy term. I have to admit, I expected this but actually going through it is a whole different process. I hardly have sleep. My body is adjusting its body clock to the point that it's confused what time I should be sleeping. It's a tough life lately. They say that junior year is when I will experience a real bio major's life - true it is.

Although, there will always be things that relieves my stress one way or another:

Reading my feeds via NetNewsWire everyday - Celebrity Gossip and Football News make me happy.
Thinking about footbal season and how it's about to start - You Go, Arsenal!
Watching/Marathon-ing chich flick on TV - 13 going on 30 a while ago and now 27 dresses.
Twitter/Vox/Multiply - they just release stress
Soundtripping via ITunes or iPhone
Doodling with my phone and downloading applications - it can be very addicting
Food, food, food, food
Dates/Trips out with friends
ABM, my org, events!
Yeah well sometimes, small little things can make us happy. :)

i was a big event.

Jun 15, 2009
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School officially starts tomorrow. After this extended break, because of the a(h1n1) pandemic, I will finally go inside my home building again and study this thing called life. Actually, the extended break did me some good,I actually feel more excited to go to school and get busy again. I've been idle for quite some time and it's exciting to be back to work. Although, I hope it's a gradual transition instead of loads of work in one go - I might just not be able to handle that.

I'm already and incoming junior and frankly, I can feel my college life already ending. All of a sudden, it felt like yesterday, I was a junior high school student. Time definitely flies fast whether or not I'm having fun. I bet before I know it, I'm on my way into choosing med schools. But like what I've always believed, I should always live with the present first. Hopefully, I would survive all my major classes because it all begins this year. This is probably the most hectic semester ever because of my intense majors.

Wish me good luck, fellas!

On a lighter note, I just finished watching A Time Traveler's Wife trailer and I am in love. I felt so nostalgic and excited for the movie! Shucks, I don't know if I can wait until August! Aggravating! :) Looking forward to this.

Cuidate everyone!

it's a bittersweet symphony;

Jun 7, 2009
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The past days have been bittersweet for me, well sweet mostly. The highlight would be knowing that classes got moved and would start on June 16! Well, that's not exactly the highlight, my HS reunion would be it. I haven't seen most of them in a long time and I definitely missed them. Quite frankly, you can't avoid that during reunions, you'd get stuck most of the time talking to the person beside you but that's not the point. Being around the people that I truly missed a million dollars worth of, is already enough to make me smile and cheer me up.

We went to Glorietta 5 and at in Chef D'Angelo. I came in late because I was in Wow! Philippines celebrating with my Mom for the special event day of Camiguin. My mom is so popular in the province, I bet if she ran for congress or mayor, she'd win except she's just not really into those.

After Ched D'Angelo, we went to Giligan's and ate again, and the usual let's bond over alcohol. Haha! We really don't get drunk, we enjoy being able to talk and update each other with our lives over cocktails. And since we're the type who wants to remove all those ROH (alcohol in chemistry, I am such a geek), we decided to go to greenbelt 3 and dance it away. Well, my friend, Miko, pretty much blew the crowd away because he's such a great street dancer! Damn, I wish I had his skills! Haha!

So far, I have a whole week ahead of me and I am looking forward to it. Cuidate everyone!

and it's cold outside;

Jun 5, 2009
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It's been storming really hard yesterday, and I didn't go out even if I wanted to because I had this strong feeling that mother nature's really angry. And I was right, I am really good with the whole vibes thing. My intuition is always on overdrive, maybe because I use it often. So, people who underestimate my powers are strongly advised. *devil stare*

Although, I do love quality time at home. I still choose to believe that I am a home buddy, because I do enjoy being at home when I am at home. There are so many things to do and people to share it with. Yesterday, I got to eat champorado, which is a famous dish here in the Philippines, matched with pandesal. Believe me when I say, that those are the perfect food to eat on a cold rainy weather such as the one we're having. I also watched the Matrix trilogy out of a hat because I couldn't pick any other movie and right after I saw Keanu Reeves face on the cover the DVD, I knew what I was going to watch. Haha! I also had a little Wii time, but wasn't able to play real guitar hero because my sister was in law school having her orientation. (Btw, I am super excited for her.) At night, I watched the first few episodes of boys over flowers. (Again.) But I wasn't going to watch all in one sitting, I actually just wanted to do something that could make me fall asleep because the weather has got me troubling and I needed a turntable.

When I woke up this morning, it seems like the weather has calmed down a bit. I hope it doesn't storm again. It's not sunny but I think it's the type that recognize downpour for a little while. Oh well, I am still going out today and believe that I am going to be safe.

Cuidate everyone!

hopefully, i'm back!

Jun 3, 2009
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*cheers* S-O-R-R-Y for being on hiatus for such a long time. I haven't blogged in Vox for so long, I feel like I'm abandoning something that's been dear to me. Fret not, I am back and I will try as much as possible to give the gist of the summer that I just had. I know it's funny because summer is over, school is starting and I'm still in reminiscing mode. There's no harm in remembering good memories, right?

I revamped my whole interface and changed it into still yet another bright colored layout. I do believe that surrounding oneself with bright and happy colors bring out the shine inside too. So, even if I do love black, I have time for lots of brightness in my life.

This summer, I am truly blessed to visit Macau and Hong Kong with my mom and sisters. Thankfully, the swine flu fever haven't started when we actually traveled, that would be a total bummer. We stayed at the Venetian Hotel and it was extravagantly beautiful. But going to the mainland and relishing the culture of Macau is incomparable in itself. Hong Kong wasn't a stranger to us already, but we never get tired of going around a city that never fails to feel alive even if it's 12 in the morning. Disneyland of course, still touches my heart in so many ways. I will forever be a kid at heart.

It wasn't all about traveling and trips out, I had summer classes too. Biochemistry was something that I didn't expect would come splashing in my face. It was really hard and when I mean hard, it's probably the hardest chemistry subject I have taken in my life. But, I survived. I survived that course to the very last minute and I give all praises to God for giving me the courage and hope.

The most important blessing I am thankful for would be my experience in Steps as an Alumni. I really missed dancing Jazz because I've stopped for almost three years now. It was definitely a hard decision but sacrifices have to be made when going through life. I am thankful for being able to train again, stretch and keep myself fit and strong over the summer. I am thankful for a successful show and for the wonderful experience.

Now that school is finally starting, I can't imagine having time for all that I did over the summer. Nonetheless, it's time to be serious. Going into my third year just hit me in the head, two more years, and I'm off to medical school and I know that I have to do better. I shouldn't be slacking off this time and work really hard. And if that means that I have to sacrifice most of my leisure time then I shouldn't hesitate to do so, because if there's one thing that I've realized over the summer, every hardship will have its rewards in the end. Everyone just has to be patient.

Cuidate everyone! I'll keep you posted.

where are you?

Mar 22, 2009
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HELL DAYS ARE AHEAD.

I just pray that I will able to get through this.

You can't always get what you want;

Mar 13, 2009
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Being spoiled is not something I do voluntarily, but the imminent truth of it all, I am just innately "spoil-able". Although, I am not the type to takes the easy way out but more of finding the easy way through when I have the chance to do so. I mean, why would you go through the hard way when in fact there is a much easier way to get through it? Makes sense? I guess sometimes, I don't see the world as black and white. My mind goes through loop holes and thin tubes when I am faced with decisions or opinions. But I don't veer away from the normal frequencies that people are in, I do relate with them mostly because I understand and adapt well. I read body language as fast as I can understand a person talking verbally. But I do see opportunities differently from people. So how does being spoiled relate to everyday decisions? In my case, a lot.

Maybe because I have lived for so long with what most of my friends would say, "the charms" that is why I am able to get away with a lot of things but I beg to differ. It's not always about the charms. Beauty can just open the window for anyone but truly it's the talking that has got to finish the job. Let's start with simple everyday things. When I crave for taho, I have to get one so after class in school, I go straight outside and find the taho vendor. I like my taho to be filled with a lot of syrup, so I do tell Manong taho vendor to put extra syrup and sago. And he doesn't even charge me for it. Same goes with corn with cheese, ice cream orders, french fries toppings, and those food that charges extra for "extra more stuff", I get all for free. My friends would know that I hate walking around the UP campus because of the stirring heat so when I am going somewhere, they would know that I would find someone who could take me via a car. I know, I am spoiled by my friends. Luckily, they allow me to be spoiled. :p When extremes like I need to ride the MRT and the jeep ride going to the MRT would take forever, I would ask favors to get dropped off at the station. Normally, it goes my way but sometimes, I also don't get what I want. Like they say, you can't always get what you want. Lucky for me, I most of the time do. :D

I guess I am also spoiled with my parents. That's why I am spoiled with my friends too. It's one big world of me getting my way. Maybe that's why I get extremely annoyed when I don't have things my way. I tend to be so obsessive compulsive because I want everything to go according to my plan. But I don't over excess on it. I know my limits and my boundaries are. I don't push anything that might reach breaking point. The only challenge I guess is when I come face to face with something that just continuously destroys my way. It sucks to be confronted by disappointments because I'm not used to it.

I'm just not.

Cuidate everyone!

wild horses i wanna be like you;

Mar 7, 2009
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I probably have tried writing five first lines to this blog and I just keep hitting the delete button after every finished line. I can't seem to grasp what I want to say and where to even start. First off, I have failed to keep this blog updated again. My blogging days seem to be in the rear view mirror that I've been trying to readjust for quite some time now. Truth is, it has been a very hectic couple of months.

School is getting harder and harder each day. Though, it is nothing that I believe I cannot overcome. Thankfully, I get to rest today.

Have you ever felt the joys of a roller coaster ride but as you go further you just want it to end? I understand that life can be overrated sometimes but this continuous journey of ups and downs can really get a woman crazy. No wonder we have asylums everywhere. And thank God for comfort foods and shopping malls or beaches and city lights. I think because I have been blinded lately that I can't face the truth.

Oh God, just let me see already.

there you see her, sitting there across the lake

Jan 12, 2009
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OMG. Those exams just killed me.

I came in late for my physics exam because quiet frankly, who schedules an exam at 7 am? My eyebags were still in rehabilitation by then. While taking that overly killer test, the electricity in the physics pavillion went ... dead. Sadly, the lights went out and everyone were pissed. I, on the other hand, just wanted to get it over with because my biology exam is waiting for me so I didn't have the luxury to extend. I think the last 5 to 7 nos. that I still haven't answered when the brownout happened were all wrong because they were all just shotgun.

With that disappointment of an exam, I was yet to face an even worse monster that is my biology exam. I didn't feel as sad and depressed compared to physics, I don't understand why. But maybe I was just too numb to react to it. I wouldn't be surprised if I flunk both. And tomorrow, I have my biology laboratory exam and hopefully what happened a while ago wouldn't be the same.

I finished around lunch time and went to Glorietta to meet up with my mom. Although, she was having the grandest time in Intercontinental Manila Hotel, having lunchies with her girl friends. So, I opted to give her the pleasure of some "me" time and "mall-ed" alone. It's fine, I am used to it. It's fun walking in the mall alone with no specific plan. I get some satisfaction and flattering when I walk in the mall alone. Haha! How? Because when I am alone in the mall, I can't help but have a super peripheral boom view that I notice the waiters in every restaurant I pass in, look at me. Haha! Okay, I don't know if it's like my top is inside out but I don't understand why it happens - all the time. It's even worse when someone actually approaches me. And it happens - that's the only downside of being in the mall alone.

I had a quiet lunch in Java Man inside Powerbooks of Greenbelt 3 while reading Shopaholic with Sister and I got hooked. After, it made me want to shop. Haha! So I went to Greenbelt 5 and checked out the shops I haven't gone inside yet. I ended up buying nothing because I wanted a dress pants so bad that I got glued into looking for one but sadly I found nothing. Oh well, next time. Thankfully, my mom finally called me a few hours after and said they were shopping in Guess. So, I hurried up back to Glorietta and met up with them. My mom and her girl friends bought some stuff. It's funny how they still can joke around as if they're just young women like me. Haha!

So far, it was a relaxing afternoon. I expected something different but this turned out okay. :) There is nothing wrong with having some alone free time. It's very relaxing and you don't have to worry about anyone but yourself. Why don't you try it? I feel better now that I got to blog again. :)

Happy New Year to all!

Dec 31, 2008
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It takes a lot of courage to start something new in anyone's life. But thankfully we all get a free pass of being and becoming someone new during New Year. I am grateful to whoever and whenever this festive celebration was created. I've been seeing and reading tons of blog entries already about their year's resolutions and wishes. I, on the other hand, am just overly excited for the clock to strike 12 and see fireworks light up in the air. For me, nothing beats the feeling of that moment. Of course, what people would usually do is to look forward and seer the future ahead and I have my own wishful predictions as well.

I would always have one constant wish every new year since I was a young kid extremely scared to hold sparklers outside my house and that is for continuous happiness. A lot of people know that I am an overly happy person, easily swayed to laugh and would never fail to have a smile on my face. Sad to say, 2008 has tested that innate person I have always seen myself to be. This year has been a tough ride. And I could not be anymore happier than to say goodbye and greet 2009 one big hello. :)

However, I am not saying that 2008 failed me, maybe I failed 2008 because like they say wishes can only come true if I do something about it. So I know I have failed nothing because I did do something this whole year. No matter how hard it has been, I have always looked at every single day of my life beneath rose-colored glasses - each day that could be my last. And if there is something to celebrate with all the trials I've been through this year, it's the fact that I am now an even stronger person - stronger than I thought I was ever in my life.

And as this final month of 2008 comes to an end, I can feel the rewards of the year that's passed. I feel change coming -- though I don't want to jinx anything but I feel that with every hardship comes a reward and December has been an extremely good month for me. Maybe this is the air of 2009 sweeping me off to my happy little place.

Drama aside, I am thankful for the opportunities that have come my way this year. Even if the breeze of 2008 has blown the china plates on the table in front of my window, the breeze has still given me that fresh and wonderful feeling of excitement. Being a part of Candy's Council of Cool has been a priceless journey for me and I will truly treasure every experience I have had with my COC-mates. Seeing my name published in a magazine and appreciated by everyone is just the cherry on top of my favorite vanilla ice cream. The rush and high feeling of walking down the runway and modeling all that is beautifully created by talented people is a moment I will forever be proud of. Finally getting the opportunity to work with gifted photographers and stylists has exposed me to greater things and I have learned a lot. Surviving the perils of being an Iskolar ng Bayan, not flunking any subject is already an achievement I hold dearly. I am filled with joy for finally being a part of Association of Biology Majors, my growing family that besides great diversity still understands and accepts everyone else for who they are. I will forever love my batchmates and my co-apps in PMHS, for who still never fails to make me feel like I am still part of what I feel will always be the invisible link we will have. To have grown with my biology blockmates for another semester is something I also celebrate for, may we all continue to grow closely together while we learn the crazy things about life. :) Of course, to God, my family, and my friends who continuously bring me joy. So you see, there's still so much to be grateful for this year if we just forget about the china plates that are but tangible things because sometimes what we don't see but just feel like the air we're breathing is the best thing the imperfect world can give.

So 2009, before I welcome you, I am saying goodbye to 2008 first and rejoicing for the beginning of a better and brighter year. :)